poisonbitterswt (3:17:41 AM): *she stares at him from across the shop, sipping on a coffee, her blue eyes glinting with anger-she had never hated him before...but now....now she hated him more than anything*
x cutoutkid (3:17:54 AM): [ooooo i like it]
poisonbitterswt (3:17:57 AM): Avery: mum, can i go watch that guy play guitar?
poisonbitterswt (3:19:25 AM): -she looks down at her son, and then back over at the man who had took her heart and shredded it, an evil smile coming to her face- go ahead, love. Mummy will sit here *her lip curls into a sneer as she eyes her son bounding over to where he is playing the guitar*
poisonbitterswt (3:19:53 AM): Avery: hello....what song are you playing?
poisonbitterswt (3:20:27 AM): *quirks an eyebrow at the little boy that has just bounded up to me and manages a small smile* a song i wrote for my....partner....
poisonbitterswt (3:20:38 AM): *glances over at Caiden, grin widening*
x cutoutkid (3:21:32 AM): -grins and looks over at you then at the kid, thinking he's adorable-
poisonbitterswt (3:21:49 AM): Avery: is he your partner *giggles, pointing at Caiden*
poisonbitterswt (3:22:38 AM): *chuckles* you're a bright little kid, aren't you? *reaches over and tousles his hair* and what's your name?
x cutoutkid (3:23:11 AM): -is tuning my guitar, or pretending to, as i listen to you talk to him-
poisonbitterswt (3:24:03 AM): Avery: my name's Avery. My mum named me after my grandpa who died
poisonbitterswt (3:24:25 AM): *eyes widen almost imperceptibly* A-Avery...really? that's my father's name...
poisonbitterswt (3:24:56 AM): Avery: Mum thought it was a nice name....I guess I like it *grins, showing teett, one in the middle gone*
x cutoutkid (3:25:40 AM): -eyebrows knitted together a little as i sit down on a chair, strumming the guitar once as i sit with it propped, listening to the conversation-
poisonbitterswt (3:26:22 AM): and where is your mum, hmm?
poisonbitterswt (3:26:26 AM): Avery: 8
poisonbitterswt (3:26:40 AM): *points across the room* she's right there drinking her coffee
poisonbitterswt (3:27:27 AM): *follows Avery's finger and my breath catches in my throat, my mouth slightly opening and closing as i feel suddenly like the room has gotten smaller*
x cutoutkid (3:28:33 AM): -lalala strumming guitar, testing it and looking up over at you- wha's the matter?
poisonbitterswt (3:29:54 AM): *glances at you, eyes wide and frantic, but trying to remain calm* n-nothing...im just...er...gonna take this boy back to his mum....come on, Avery...*takes hold of the boy's hand, my guitar forgotten as it slips to the floor and i walk with avery over to the table where angelina is sitting*
poisonbitterswt (3:30:05 AM): *leans over, whispering* what are you doing here?
poisonbitterswt (3:30:49 AM): Angelina: oh Phoenix, is that anyway to greet the woman you almost married? *sneer in place as she looks Phoenix in the eyes*
x cutoutkid (3:31:24 AM): -watches you talk with the women, seeing her bitchy look and frowning a little-
poisonbitterswt (3:31:56 AM): Angelina: i see you finally succeeded in marrying someone though *nodding at his ring* who is she?
poisonbitterswt (3:32:19 AM): *suppresses a laugh* she is right there *jerks head towards caiden*
x cutoutkid (3:32:39 AM): -is totally not paying attention, sipping on a bottle of water
poisonbitterswt (3:32:57 AM): Angelina: *eyes widen for a moment and then narrow* you....married...a man?
poisonbitterswt (3:33:02 AM): yes, i did
poisonbitterswt (3:33:35 AM): Angelina: *stares at caiden, sneering* what's your bitch's name?
poisonbitterswt (3:33:47 AM): Caiden *says without hesitation*
poisonbitterswt (3:34:36 AM): Angelina: *gaze flicks back to Phoenix* Caiden? *spits the name as if it tastes bad in her mouth* That is Caiden? *voice raises a bit*
x cutoutkid (3:35:05 AM): -looks up and over at the two of you, quirking an eyebrow-
x cutoutkid (3:35:14 AM): -thinking i heard my name-
poisonbitterswt (3:35:51 AM): Yes....he is Caiden...him...a man....my husband! Do you have a problem with that, Angelina?
poisonbitterswt (3:36:39 AM): Angelina:*gets to her feet, stepping close to him, poking a finger into his chest* Well, I hope your husband is understanding
poisonbitterswt (3:36:46 AM): *brow furrows* of what?
poisonbitterswt (3:38:47 AM): Angelina: *flicks gaze to Avery, then leans even closer to Phoenix* of your son, Phoenix
x cutoutkid (3:40:25 AM): -hears this loud and clear and swallows-
poisonbitterswt (3:40:31 AM): *eyes widen* m-my son? *looks down at Avery* you're shitting me, right?
poisonbitterswt (3:41:01 AM): Angelina: *smiles wickedly* oh no, Phoenix...i am definitely not shitting you
x cutoutkid (3:41:34 AM): -sets down my guitar-
poisonbitterswt (3:41:52 AM): Why in the hell are you coming to me with this now?
poisonbitterswt (3:42:23 AM): We were together over four years ago, Ange....four fucking years and you decide to tell me now?
poisonbitterswt (3:43:20 AM): Angelina: well, I knew you were still...vulnerable...and since we were falling apart...i didnt think i wanted to have you as the father of my child....but now...i believe Avery deserves to have a dad
x cutoutkid (3:43:25 AM): -is looking over at levi, then dani [who i assume are there?] before i slowly get up from my seat-
poisonbitterswt (3:44:17 AM): Angelina....this isn't fair..
poisonbitterswt (3:44:55 AM): Angelina: oh I think it is, Phoenix. I've given you four years without responsibility....but now, you need to step up and be a man...
poisonbitterswt (3:45:31 AM): *closes eyes, biting down on my lip* You...are...still...fucking unbelievable....
poisonbitterswt (3:45:47 AM): Angelina: *laughs bitterly* I'll take that as a compliment
x cutoutkid (3:46:33 AM): -swallows again and lowers my head, putting my hands in my pocket before i make my way through the tables quietly, trying to disappear through the doors without anyone noticing me. opens the door, walking down the street-
poisonbitterswt (3:49:36 AM): *opens eyes again and my gaze lands on Avery-noticing he does resemble me quite a bit* i cant deal with this right now, Ange....please...just go...
poisonbitterswt (3:51:23 AM): Angelina: of course....and Phoenix, love *moves so her lips are close to his ear* i think your beloved may have heard us....because he just swept out of here when you weren't paying attention *steps back* come on, Avery, sweetie. Let's go visit your friends *takes Avery's hand and strides purposefully out of the shop*
x cutoutkid (3:51:51 AM): -totally got into our car and took off towards the house-
x cutoutkid (3:52:32 AM): -driving a little fast, trying to get away from you and just be alone. that womens words pounding in my head long after i pulled into the driveway-
poisonbitterswt (3:53:21 AM): *looks around the shop frantically, noticing that Angelina was right* fuck...shit....fuck! Levi, can i borrow your car for a bit? i need to run somewhere
poisonbitterswt (3:54:22 AM): Levi: *had heard everything, saw Caiden leave, and tries to smile at Phoenix, but cant quite manage it* sure, Nix *tosses Phoenix his car keys and goes back to discussing something with Dani*
poisonbitterswt (3:56:07 AM): *catches the keys and runs outside to Levi's Mini, as soon as i have the car started i slam it into gear and speed off towards home, hoping you are there and not wandering around somewhere- breathes out small sigh of relief when i see our car in the driveway-get out of the car quickly and hurry up to the front door, swinging it open* Cai! CAI, where are you?
x cutoutkid (3:58:04 AM): -is in the hammock, curled up there and swinging back and forth slowly, nox is laying down in my arms, licks at my face. tears are falling and i dont know why, the feeling in the pit of my stomach making me feel almost nausous when i hear your voice-
poisonbitterswt (3:59:25 AM): Cai! *mutters under breath* goddamit, where are you? *searches the bedroom, bathroom, study, until finally getting a clue to look outside- see you on the hammock and take a slow, shaky breath before i step outside, stopping a few feet from you*
x cutoutkid (3:59:58 AM): -doesnt look up, idly petting nox's head and looking across the grass-
poisonbitterswt (4:00:48 AM): *sees your tears and my stomach twists into knots* Cai...?*reaches out a hand, but stop myself before i touch you* Cai...
x cutoutkid (4:01:37 AM): what? -mumbled, wiping at my cheek-
poisonbitterswt (4:01:48 AM): Please....look at me, Cai....
x cutoutkid (4:03:19 AM): -does so for a moment, my eyes red and filled with tears, but then averts them away-
poisonbitterswt (4:05:00 AM): *slowly approaches you, kneeling beside the hammock* Cai....what you heard...*bites lip, not knowing what to say*
x cutoutkid (4:05:34 AM): you're....you'll leave me... if it's yours...won't you....-chewing on my lip, pulling my legs up-
x cutoutkid (4:05:43 AM): if he's your son...
poisonbitterswt (4:06:43 AM): *mouth drops open* l-leave you? why in god's name would i leave you?!
x cutoutkid (4:07:24 AM): to...to be with her...whoever she is...you'll leave me...have a happy family...all that rubbish...
poisonbitterswt (4:08:27 AM): Cai....*trails off for a moment* no! no way in fucking hell would i leave you for her
x cutoutkid (4:09:30 AM): -takes a deep shaky breath, swallowing thickly before i look at you again- how can you be sure...w-what happens when you know for sure...
poisonbitterswt (4:10:33 AM): *stares deep into your eyes* Cai...you're the reason i'm not with her to begin with...and even if he is my son, that will never, ever make me give you up
x cutoutkid (4:12:32 AM): -closes my eyes, feeling tears fall still- what...what do you mean i'm the reason...
poisonbitterswt (4:13:30 AM): i....after i came here...i met her....things happened fast and we...we almost got married....but well.....when i got up there...i said your name....not hers...
x cutoutkid (4:14:56 AM): -swallows and looks down, letting nox jump to the ground before i sit up a little- why would you...i mean...when...
poisonbitterswt (4:16:44 AM): sometime after i got out of the hospital...she told me...she said she wanted to get married....and i...i went with it....i dont even think my heart was in it...and then i fumbled the names...and she ran off....and i didnt see her after that....she packed her things and left....
x cutoutkid (4:17:25 AM): -nods just a little- how come... you never told me about her? i mean...if you were almost married...
poisonbitterswt (4:18:39 AM): i dont know....i just....i guess i tried not to think about her...i knew what a mess i made...and well....during that time she was kind of one of the least things on my mind...
x cutoutkid (4:19:10 AM): i...what...what are you going to do...if she comes around again?
poisonbitterswt (4:20:20 AM): i have no fucking clue...i never expected to see her again after she left over four years ago...and then she just showed up....and she's fucking vindictive as hell...and i saw it in her eyes....she hates me....she's probably capable of anything...if she sets her mind to it...
x cutoutkid (4:20:48 AM): anything? -biting my lip and looking at you, touching your hand just barely-
poisonbitterswt (4:22:30 AM): well....i dont think she'd try to kill me or anything *says this half-jokingly* but I'm sure if she wanted to raise hell...she would do it for the fun of it...*gazes at your hand on mine, tentatively thumbing over the top of your hand*
x cutoutkid (4:24:21 AM): no wonder you didnt marry her... she doesnt sound a thing like me...-whispered-
poisonbitterswt (4:25:33 AM): *smiles softly* she's nothing like you, Cai...nothing at all...and i think thats why i couldn't love her....*slightly grasps your hand, close to tears*
x cutoutkid (4:27:23 AM): -wiggles my fingers between ours and over the back of your hand, palm flat against yours as i try to offer a small smile-
poisonbitterswt (4:28:40 AM): *reaches up my other hand to the side of your face* im sorry i didnt tell you.....she was just a part of my life i wanted to forget....and you...you're the part of my life i need to remember and keep separate from all that bull...because you're what keeps me going, Cai...and I wouldn't jeopardize what I have with you for anything...or anyone...
x cutoutkid (4:30:14 AM): -nods my head just a bit against your hand in understanding- i just...what she said...i got scared, phoenix...i'm sorry..-swallows- i guess...i'm just scared that you... you really don't want to spend the rest of your life with me....i.. i think a partof me will always worry i'll be without you one day...
x cutoutkid (4:30:30 AM): and i wont know what to do with myself...if you're not there...
poisonbitterswt (4:31:09 AM): *closes eyes for a moment, tears slipping over cheeks* i went through hell and back to get to you...and i will go through it again to keep you...
x cutoutkid (4:31:52 AM): i hate when you cry...nix...-brings a hand up, brushing the tears away before i pull my fingers from your hand, reaching my arms around you to hug you-
poisonbitterswt (4:33:19 AM): *collapses in your arms, burying my face in your chest* you are the only one i want to spend my life with...there is no one else....not one person....i could even try to see myself with....and if i ever lost you...ever...i wouldn't be living....i'd just exist...
x cutoutkid (4:35:07 AM): -bends my arms, touching the back of your head softly as i nuzzle my cheek against the side of your head- i know, baby...i know...i just... i freaked...that small part of me...freaked....
poisonbitterswt (4:36:51 AM): i couldn't breathe...when she told me that....i felt like the room was closing in on me....oh god, Cai....what if he is mine...?what am i supposed to do? I dont even know him....
x cutoutkid (4:37:34 AM): then you... you'll get to know him, Phoenix... if he is yours...-strokes your hair gently-
poisonbitterswt (4:38:22 AM): *closes eyes tight, holding back a new onslaught of tears- then looking up at you* if he is mine...you wont hate me, will you?
x cutoutkid (4:39:25 AM): you know i could never...not in this life or the next, phoenix...-smiles softly at you-
poisonbitterswt (4:40:12 AM): *tries to return your smile, even though i feel my face will break-leans up just a bit and brushes my lips against yours*
x cutoutkid (4:40:58 AM): -kissing you back softly, not needy, just to let you know i'm there-
poisonbitterswt (4:41:51 AM): *breaks away from the kiss and rests my head against your chest again, listening to your heartbeat, my eyes slipping closed, feeling suddenly drained*
x cutoutkid (4:43:18 AM): -brings my fingers up and down your back- dont want to go back to the gig, do you? -rests my chin on your head, taking in your smell-
x cutoutkid (4:43:57 AM): the smell of your hair-
poisonbitterswt (4:44:41 AM): not...particularly...can we...can we just...lie together....i'll call levi.....tell him to postpone it till later....
x cutoutkid (4:45:34 AM): you know i can't say no to you -kisses your forehead as i pull back from you- but can we go and find the bed? im getting a little cold out here
x cutoutkid (4:45:40 AM): [its sept ish right?]
poisonbitterswt (4:45:48 AM): (yeah)
poisonbitterswt (4:46:33 AM): i wasn't...gonna make you....stay outside....my piercings...are freezing as it is...*chuckles, getting slowly to my feet and pulling you up to your feet, leading you into the house and to the bedroom*
x cutoutkid (4:47:27 AM): -follows you, kicking off my shoes as we get in and going to the bedroom-
x cutoutkid (4:48:02 AM): thats alright...i thinkmy dick was freezing...-jokes, kissing your shoulder as we enter the room-
x cutoutkid (4:48:10 AM): (damn that piercing)
poisonbitterswt (4:48:32 AM): (he has it already???thought he got it on halloween??)
x cutoutkid (4:49:09 AM): (damnit, well his dick is still cold. sorry. i messed that up. :-P)
x cutoutkid (4:50:07 AM): and my nose...and my lip...-rambles-
poisonbitterswt (4:50:40 AM): i can warm em up for you...*glances over my shoulder at you as i pick up the phone to call levi*
x cutoutkid (4:51:24 AM): -sits down on the bed before i lift the covers up and snuggle under them, tucking the blanket under my feet in a little cacoon-
poisonbitterswt signed off at 4:51:37 AM.
poisonbitterswt signed on at 4:51:41 AM.
x cutoutkid (4:51:44 AM): -sits down on the bed before i lift the covers up and snuggle under them, tucking the blanket under my feet in a little cacoon-
poisonbitterswt (4:52:44 AM): hey lev....yeah....really? *laughs* thanks, mate...*hangs up, grinning at you* Levi already took it upon himself to postpone the gig, because he thought we needed some time together...
x cutoutkid (4:53:39 AM): funny...-motions for you to come over- wasnt he just saying something about us being around each other too much? i dont think theres such a thing...but you know...-on my side, facing you-
poisonbitterswt (4:56:50 AM): *crawls into bed next to you, pulling you into my arms* definitely no such thing....
poisonbitterswt (4:57:09 AM): *yawns a bit, kissing the top of your head*
poisonbitterswt (4:57:28 AM): he said...he'd call....when we need to be there....*eyes close*
x cutoutkid (4:58:10 AM): mmm...alright...-ruffles your hair in my fingers a little, resting my forehead against yours and closing my eyes with a small smile-
poisonbitterswt (4:58:42 AM): *drifts off into a peaceful sleep, the feeling of you in my arms taking away my fears*
x cutoutkid (5:00:44 AM): -whispers softly, though i know youre asleep- i hope we're as strong as we think...-kisses your cheek gently-