X KIEREN X (8:22:15 PM): "No! Don't touch me!" A glass shatters on the wall of the kitchen, and Caiden jumps a little in his seat. "I sweat to God, Mother, that if Kireina ever lets me keep my son that I won't ignore things like you did me. I won't ever let him hurt the way you both did me. I will love him despinte anything and everything; if he's gay, strait, disfiguredm retarted...I'll love him not matter what!"
x cutoutkid (8:23:34 PM): -can we move to when kieren slams cai against the wall after he runs out? we can use what u said already of cai to kireina-
X KIEREN X (8:24:02 PM)
: ( ::flips pages:: )
X KIEREN X (8:25:18 PM)
: Kireina brings her hands to her face, covering her eyes.

Caiden feels a coldness in his heart, and the last words that his boyfriend yelled rings through his ears like a broken record. His child. Kieren's son. Kieren is the father.

He wants to storm into the kitchen and demand an explaination. Why did Kieren not tell him? No, why did he do it?

Kireina removes her hands and tries to meet Caiden's eyes. "Cai"-

X KIEREN X (8:26:04 PM)
: "What?" he snarls. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Becuase it's Kieren's repsonsiblility," she answers softly. "He's been searching for the right moment"-

"He fucked you"-

"It was an accident"-

"Fucking something is
not an accident!"
X KIEREN X (8:27:07 PM)
: The kitchen grows silent after another glass shatters. Kieren opens the door and his red eyes land on Caiden.

"Why didn't you tell me?" demands Caiden as he stands

Kieren stands still; fresh tears begin to pour down his cheeks as his eyes stare at Caiden. "How-how much did you hear?" he chokes.

X KIEREN X (8:30:42 PM)
: Caiden looks away; he is fuming now as he takes three long strides for the door. Quickly, he turns the handle and rushes out into the hallway. He gets halfway down the hall towards the stairs when he hears, "Caiden, stop!" from Kieren.

The Aussie does not look back as he enters the stairwel, tears of rejection beginning to form, but he tries to blind them away. Caiden breaks into a hasty run down the stairs, taking two at a time. He does not heart the footsteps behind him taking three, four, five! steps at a time.

"Stop, Caiden!" calls Kieren. They are on the second floor now, and the raver quickly catches Caiden; when the smaller man refuses to stop, Kieren grabs for his hand. "Listen to me"-

"No!" Caiden takes his hand away but Kieren grabs at the punk's smaller body and slams him up against the wall.

"Goddamnit!" Kieren's voice echos through the tall room. "Give me a bloody moment to explain!"

X KIEREN X (8:30:47 PM)
: -sim-
x cutoutkid (8:31:28 PM)
: [caiden doesnt like being shoved]
x cutoutkid (8:31:42 PM)
: -shoves you off of me, looking at you with a hatred in my eyes-
X KIEREN X (8:32:09 PM)
: ::shoves you back, harder this time, pinning you against the wall so that you can't move::
x cutoutkid (8:32:22 PM)
: get. off. of. me.
x cutoutkid (8:32:39 PM)
: -seething-
x cutoutkid (8:32:42 PM)
: -like whoa-
X KIEREN X (8:33:09 PM)
: only if you listen to me!
x cutoutkid (8:33:46 PM)
: -wiggles in your grasp- let me go, you asshole.
X KIEREN X (8:34:11 PM)
: no :presses harder against you, my hands beginning to hurt a little::
x cutoutkid (8:34:56 PM)
: i won't listen if you don't let me the fuck go.
X KIEREN X (8:35:25 PM)
: ::gives you a look behind my eyes, tears still falling, as i carefully release you::
x cutoutkid (8:36:02 PM)
: don't you EVER fucking touch me like that again, Kieren. -tears in my eyes, a sick feeling of nostalgia ripping through me-
X KIEREN X (8:36:31 PM)
: ::looks down:: i'm sorry...::whispers::
x cutoutkid (8:36:59 PM)
: -rubs at me arm, stepping away from the wall-
x cutoutkid (8:37:01 PM)
: my-
x cutoutkid (8:37:49 PM)
: you want to explain what I just heard in there? since there's "more" to it. -sarcasmin my voice-
X KIEREN X (8:38:57 PM)
: ::looks into your eyes for a moment, and then looks away, leaning back agains the wall opposite of you:: i got trashed a few months ago, and i have sex with kireina...
x cutoutkid (8:39:22 PM)
: a few MONTHS and you never TOLD me?
X KIEREN X (8:40:42 PM)
: i was so trashed that i don't even remember it happening, but i woke up with her next to me...we were both naked...and i wanted to completely ignore that anything could have even happened...I didn't want to tell you something that may not even have been true...
X KIEREN X (8:41:28 PM)
: and then she told me she was pregnant the day i came back from adelaide, and i denied that i was the father...and i did for a long time until a few weeks ago when she finally made me have a blood test done...
X KIEREN X (8:42:18 PM)
: and it is mine, Cai...i wanted to tell you to your face...not on the phone or not through an IM...to your face because you deserve that...you deserve the truth to your face
x cutoutkid (8:42:50 PM)
: i don't care how you told me, kieren
x cutoutkid (8:43:00 PM)
: you should have let me in on what was going on in your life
X KIEREN X (8:43:21 PM)
: i know...everything just started to pile up...
x cutoutkid (8:44:10 PM)
: -swallows and looks down- and what about your dad, kieren? why do you hide all these things from me?
X KIEREN X (8:44:53 PM)
: it's not...that i hide them...
X KIEREN X (8:45:29 PM)
: it's...it's like how we don't talk about chuck...it's not pleasant conversation...
x cutoutkid (8:46:11 PM)
: -scowls and looks down- you lied to me... about your scar... i wouldnt have minded you telling me the truth
x cutoutkid (8:46:20 PM)
: we're not supposed to lie to one another
X KIEREN X (8:46:21 PM)
: i did tell you the truth
X KIEREN X (8:46:33 PM)
: i wasn't lying about getting in a fight
X KIEREN X (8:46:40 PM)
: that it was the only one i ever ran away from
X KIEREN X (8:47:37 PM)
: that wasn't a lie
x cutoutkid (8:49:14 PM)
: -shakes my head- alright, so you didn't tell the whole story.
x cutoutkid (8:54:52 PM): X KIEREN X (8:47:37 PM): that wasn't a lie
x cutoutkid (8:49:14 PM)
: -shakes my head- alright, so you didn't tell the whole story.

X KIEREN X (8:56:11 PM): so what? it's not like you'd care to hear it. no one cares about that
x cutoutkid (8:56:23 PM): NO ONE CARES?
x cutoutkid (8:56:30 PM)
: What the blood hell, Kieren!
X KIEREN X (8:56:46 PM)
: ::looks away::
x cutoutkid (8:57:12 PM)
: Don't you see the way your mum FAWNS over you? I wish my mum would put down her needles every so often and pick up the phone! I'd rather one of my parents loved me half of what your mother loves you!
x cutoutkid (8:57:57 PM)
: Neither of my parents even care enough to know where I am
X KIEREN X (8:58:19 PM)
: ::says nothing::
x cutoutkid (8:59:34 PM)
: your mum loves you. i would kill to have someone like her trying to help me out in my life. and I care, kieren. I DO. even if i wasnt around when it happened.
X KIEREN X (9:00:23 PM)
: ::leans far back against the wall and looks up, tears streaming down my face::
x cutoutkid (9:02:10 PM)
: -shakes my head and looks down- i don't like that i dont know a-about you....i want to know everything about you, the good and the bad
X KIEREN X (9:03:14 PM)
: ::sighs:: i can't tell you everything about me in only a few months...i...it's hard for me to talk about things...it really is
x cutoutkid (9:04:46 PM)
: -frowns and looks up at you-
X KIEREN X (9:06:23 PM)
: ::does not look at you, but stares at the ceiling:: i have to plan everything out in my head...entire conversations...sometimes each one thousands of times over just to find how i want to tell you things. and then there are topics that i want to shrivle up and die just thinking about...there are things about me that i don't want to even know myself, let alone you
x cutoutkid (9:07:14 PM)
: i know... i know how that feels, but with you... i feel like i could tell you anything...
X KIEREN X (9:09:20 PM): ...i know how that is...
x cutoutkid (9:10:39 PM): -nods my head and looks at you- i just want you to... if you want to tell me something... dont think it over... just... tell me...
X KIEREN X (9:11:13 PM): ::looks down at you::
X KIEREN X (9:11:30 PM): i'm sorry...
x cutoutkid (9:12:16 PM)
: -shakes my head- what are you... kireina... how long...
X KIEREN X (9:12:43 PM)
: she's three 1/2, maybe four months now...
x cutoutkid (9:13:50 PM)
: -bites my lip and looks down at the floor with a small nod of my head-
X KIEREN X (9:14:05 PM)
: she...she doesn't want to keep it
x cutoutkid (9:14:42 PM)
: whats she going to do then?
X KIEREN X (9:15:00 PM)
: give it up for adoption...you know, in spite of me demanding that she abort it
x cutoutkid (9:16:40 PM)
: -looks up at you- abort it? at least she...shes going to give it to a family... who wants a kid... yaknow?
X KIEREN X (9:17:27 PM): i know...but you know, i've been becoming attatched to it lately...
X KIEREN X (9:18:05 PM): ...i asked her if we could keep it instead...she gave me the nastiest look ever and didn't even answer...
x cutoutkid (9:18:46 PM)
: maybe shes not... shes not the type to have kids? i mean shes young still, kier...
X KIEREN X (9:19:19 PM): she's the same age I am...i mean...i don't know..
x cutoutkid (9:20:37 PM): yes... but you're only 19, kieren...what do you expect from her?
X KIEREN X (9:20:54 PM): ::looks away::
X KIEREN X (9:21:49 PM): i just...i didn't think any woman could be so cold about a child...especially her own
x cutoutkid (9:22:10 PM)
: -makes a snorting sound-
X KIEREN X (9:22:51 PM)
: ::glances at you, not meaning to bring up anything like your mom or something::
x cutoutkid (9:23:10 PM)
: you'd be surprised how cold people can be
x cutoutkid (9:23:24 PM)
: though i'm sure you know
X KIEREN X (9:23:38 PM)
: ::bites lip::
X KIEREN X (9:24:52 PM)
: ...i'm sorry i didn't tell you...
x cutoutkid (9:31:48 PM)
: i..i understand...i do...-looks at you-
X KIEREN X (9:33:19 PM): do you...could you ever...forgive me?
x cutoutkid (9:33:46 PM): i already do...
X KIEREN X (9:34:00 PM): ::reaches for your hands::
x cutoutkid (9:34:46 PM): -smiles a little, intwining my fingers in yours-
X KIEREN X (9:35:31 PM): ::pulls you close into an embrace::
x cutoutkid (9:35:52 PM): -wraps my arms around you, my cheek on your shoulder-
X KIEREN X (9:37:32 PM)
: ::kisses your forehead:: i love you
x cutoutkid (9:38:22 PM)
: -nods a little as your lips brush my skin- i know... i love you to...